CG 08

When you are bitching over the lack of decent guys around to date and you learn that your X got men panting for him..that kinda sucks. What has happened to the world? Are men really liking AHOLES now than the much adored vajayjay? I must admit i still am not over the gay x saga...got myself drunk and happy last night i was able to laugh about it after crying for 12 hours. My head and my eyes finally gave in. so when you've hit rock bottom all you have to do is propel yourself to the top and project and smile...gin blu did it for me. i woke up early today texted my mom to call me right away as i can feel the tears coming back...i waited and finally she did. had myself a really good cry...more like a really good 15 mins of wailing. after that i tidied up the house a bit, texted a few people and cancelled my curled-up-in-bed-with-gin-on-hand all day drama by deciding to go to work. YES i've cried it all out i don't think i have any more in me to shed. gawd it's hard. it's freaking hard. several offline messages from the gay x didn't help at all. he wanted me to be happy and there are other guys out there for me...coz he's flirty with the men right now i bet he gets his ass slapped silly. point your finger at me and tell me i'm bitter.haha.i am i know! i'll get over this i know. i will heal in my own time. now i've got to find me a surfer dude i've always wanted and let him play with his balls.