CG 08

2nd night after the revelation i was still shaky. Had a few beers with my friends and a couple shots of gin when i got home. The rage has subsided about .00000005...so yeah i gues i am still enraged. Sad. Slept 4.30 in the morning with my nerves a bit settled. I was afraid of the waking up part....coz it still fucking hurts so fucking bad everytime i’m sober. My dear friend Julie woke me up...she was calling from Chicago and i was still groggy from the alcohol. Couldn’t talk hunny...this was 7.30 in the morning. A bit later my mom woke me up...relayed her YM conversation with the gay X. My mom’s such a good researcher she even saw the down under lover luvin gay X’s down there in facebook. HAH! thanks for talking to gay X, mom...but please as i said..spare me the gory details! i don’t want more information coz it’s enough to know he said to you about the last 5 years of our 9 year-cover-up relationship was crappy basically because he was associating himself with the same sex already. DURRRRR.....what a way to greet the new day! HAH! tears did not come but i must say again i got really shaky.again. i just had to text gay x

Evil B: U had the guts 2 tel my mom 5 yrs ago u had thots u were queer but u didn’t hav d balls 2 break up then when i so wanted to.Fuck u 4 wasting my life!Queer nd gay is d same thing.So is a boyfriend and a partner. I wish ul have the worst day as i am still in hell with all this crap u put me thru.I hate u!i hate u!

Gay X: i didn’t tell her i had ideas 5 yrs into wat we had..i told her we wr miserable r last 5 yrs..galit nlng n kyo.stop txting me ok? do wat you want wid your lives..leave me alone..

Evil B: I will reallly leave u alone u lying fag.i hate u nd i will hate u forever.


yuck. lying fag?hahaha....yeah..that’;s gonna hurt him. i wil hate you forever?hahaha OMFG...i sounded like a spoiled pms-ing teenager hahahaha. eeeeeeeeeew. i coud easily have told him you suck dick fucking lying asslicker. oh well..i gues it was too early in the morning to feast on profanity. but hmm...5 years into the relationship and were miserable already...of course hunny...you realized you didn’t want pussies but you pretended to. that’s why the last 5 yrs were crappy. Had you told me earlier i could’ve given you tips on how to shop for the right clotes and how to do your nails and all...but no. I’m hurt. you had to run to another biatch to learn all them gay guys do. Well at least now i’m really gonna hate you forever. yes baby..forevah!