CG 08

Here i am at 28...thinking i've dealt with enough of "life's challenges" to make me strong...that is where i am mistaken..nothing ever really prepares you for life's next big challenge...and for me it's having your ex boyfriend for 9 years tell you that he's queer. He's your competition in this world where the rate of meeting decent guys is constantly decreasing. How else will you be prepared for that? i was shaken to the core and it has been 4 hours already since i started crying. this may not be the right place to blog about it and im sorry to the other girls for venting out on this site. I just have to let it out. i have to. It was just last night i was furious coz i thought the X had replaced me for another girl whom i know and am not very much fond of because of the fact that this girl already has two kids in gradeschool plus she was some married guy's bimbo (not sure if she is still now tho). I even had bitter status messages in facebook and my ym. It's not im bitter coz i was replaced already...im mad coz he did it first!haha. i should be the one who'll hook up with someone and be blissfully happy for the rest of my life..not HIM. I just had to have my moment of victory and he, his moment of wallowing in misery over his loss of a great girl. THe joke's on me. at 2.15 today i was crying over his email telling me he was queer. It must've taken a lot of courage...yeah it did, i'd give him that. now it's 6 freakin' 49 pm and my eyes and head hurt and i still can't stop crying. Wait there's more! he's not just queer but he has a partner now. yeah. all smiley and sunshiny, lovey dovey partner now. this is not supposed to happen. I chatted with him over YM and he told me how it happened...how they met...what changed..who he is now...things like that. what do you think i should do? i didn't even know how to react. gawd my life is a freaking joke! Tequila anyone?