CG 08

Everything went downhill since the day i learned my x lover was freakin' gay. AND NO THIS IS NOT A BLOG ABOUT HIM/HER. Told myself yesterday that i have to eat healthy, stop drinking and cut smoking...just when i thought i could do it for a whole freakin' week ( even when last night every cell in me told me to go out and buy some!hahaha..pathetic!)another bomb drops on top of my head. I wonder for how long will i be able to keep up with reality's harshness? Stop me first before i overdramatize. I am very emotional (not yet PMSing) and sympathetic so tell me how do i handle the news that a whole team in my department will be disintegrated and some members from my own team will be relieved too?! gawd!!!!!!! put yourselves in the shoes of those people who'll be gone soon?! it's almost CHRISTMAS for gawd's sake! i can't imagine myself being told that by this date you won't have work anymore....i'd go ballistic! how am i supposed to feed my baby doggy tinx?how am i supposed to live?! even think of what i'm gonna do after this?I've been here for almost 2 years...which means 1 year and 6 months..hahaha...im haflway there ok?! but then this has been my life!!!! when i come to work..i open up my PC...i log in to facebook...asianfanatics...wretch and play pet society(which is so amusing y'all should try it) then i check my email...reply to some of them, finish the reports that have been piling up if i feel like it...then i'd go out buy food and sometimes do my groceries(yeah i suck)UT y'all have to understand..that's how we work here. Stressful hours start at 7PM which is the 2nd half of the shift...you get the picture? So when it's time to give up the life you've been accustomed to for almost 2 years that SUCKS big time.BIG TIME. I don't wanna go to other callcenters...they'll just dry me up with stress, politics and the like. I've had the devil as my boss when i was in RCBC and things we're so much like HELL...not that i've been there(prolly she was born there and went to earth to destroy humankiship..)
i'm getting off-topic...
FRIIIIIIIIIICK!!!!!!!
i need a drink...ooh...HIJA's playing at SAGUIJO...
i've a meeting tomorrow morning...help me retain my sanity afterwards..and my HOPE for the real flowers.
BARF.